I’m not a very angry person, I don’t really have it in me to be genuinely pissed most of the time. Sometimes I’ll get irritated, and I can usually kinda DBT my way through it, but honestly I’m really pissed at my ex. The more I think about everything horrible she did and continues doing, the more I kinda spiral into being pissed and it’s not helping me at all but I don’t really know how to decompress all of it. I’m rightfully pissed, she did some truly nuclear shit I’d need content warnings for, and having that anger is healthy at some level. But like I said, I need to get my mind off this shit so I don’t become a bitter divorced dad lol
Writing helps me get it out of my head, and also sharpens my thoughts on the subject, hones it and prunes it into something shapely and defined, so that it makes sense and doesn’t take up too much space in my head when I think about it. I’ve said goodbye on the page to people I used to be so close with, was so angry at what they did. Now the feeling has simmered into a low bitterness that doesn’t bother me as long as I don’t bother it.