I was bordering suicidal this morning due to some of the dark feelings I felt. Slowly coming away from that now, but still feel like hangovers just destroy me now

  • Frank [he/him, he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
    23·
    5 months ago

    I haven’t had that issue but yeah, pretty much everything is harder to recover from and takes longer to recover at 38 than it did at 30. Age is real and it sucks and people who say “:I can’t wait to be old” are extremely strange people.

    • GinAndJuche@hexbear.netEnglish
      17·
      5 months ago

      I have a scab on my hand from where it hit a metal rack while I was stocking a few days ago. A decade ago it would have been healed by now.

      Shit sucks dude

        • GinAndJuche@hexbear.netEnglish
          11·
          5 months ago

          If aging didn’t exist Kissinger would yet live. I’m willing to die so that the people I hate also share that fate. Just wish it wasn’t so slow and humiliating.

          • Frank [he/him, he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
            12·
            5 months ago

            Yes but consider - Countless millions of people victimized by Kissinger would have remained young, virile, healthy, and capable of carrying out unlikely political assassinations. Imagine a world where every old, broken communist could bench their own weight and run a ten minute mile and would bring all their hatred, rage, and sorrow to war with all the vitality they had when they were 20?

            • GinAndJuche@hexbear.netEnglish
              7·
              5 months ago

              There would be more permanently young ghouls.

              Our main obstacle is our lack of numbers. Granting eternal youth to all would only magnify that.

              So long as death and crippling are on the table it advantages us because asymmetrical warfare and terrorism are our tools: a stratagem that allows a single person to affect hundreds.

              Look at that anarchist who had a convoluted shoved and accomplished nothing, dying doesn’t matter unless you get an x+1:x ratio out of it.

              Just my opinion though.

            • GinAndJuche@hexbear.netEnglish
              2·
              5 months ago

              Counter counterpoint: there are less comrades than ghouls. If one of us being forced to be mortal is true, like a hindered of them have to die too. For the greater good.

              • Frank [he/him, he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
                3·
                5 months ago

                counter counter counterpoint - it’s been 99 to one in favor of re-distributing all the land to the peasants since they invented peasants, it only seems the other way around now because of a fluke of propaganda and, i cannot stress this enough, because all the people who actually lived under communism either died already or weren’t old enough to remember it. Plus, there are 1.3 billion Chinese people and while they’re not all ideological communists there’s still a lot of them. The whole thing with the left is that it benefits the vast majority of people, while every other system by design only benefits like 5 specific people.

    • GalaxyBrain [they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
      5·
      5 months ago

      Early 30s guy who got blackout drunk daily as well as doing as many uppers as I could, staying awake for days not eating, almost getting scurvy as a vegan, and otherwise doing everything you can to your body thars bad for it drawing the line only at needles for most of my late teens through my 20s, the longer term damage will start to be problems all at once and won’t go away, they just won’t get worse if you smarten up. There’s no healing some stuff, there’s just not making it exponentially worse. Parts of me don’t work quite as well as other people now and I’m just kinda stuck that way now. So yeah, don’t fuck around kids.