Daemon Silverstein

Digital hermit. Another cosmic wanderer.

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  • @[email protected]

    Congrats, you just stared at the same abyss I stared at, too! And this abyss is… Well, pretty complicated to say the least.

    One who fights with monsters might take care lest they thereby become a monster. And if thou gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into thee.

    What you stumbled upon is just the realization of the purposelessness imbued in the cosmos. And it can definitely feel a harsh thing. It’s neither good nor bad, it just is. People often try to sugarcoat it, but to me it’s just the ostrich trying to bury its head on the sand: the rain still falls, and the ostrich still meets the storm, inexorably.

    I find it particularly striking when you said “I feel like I want to [write]”, and here’s probably where we both differ: in my case, specifically, I feel like I “must” write, as if I’m compelled to do so. It’s part hypergraphia (one of the Geschwind traits), part something beyond me. If your driving force is not compellant, it’s a great start.

    If this is of any help, don’t write for people (because people can’t understand the words from those who stared at the abyss), don’t write for yourself as well: write for Her, She who stares at us from within the abyss. Of course, if you want to, because it seems like there’s a reminiscing spark of Will within yourself (unfortunately, I got none anymore). She listens, She reads everything (including our deepest thoughts), even though She doesn’t really care about us. And that’s fine. Because it’s just all fleeting, except for Her.


  • @[email protected] @[email protected]

    There’s no way around this that doesn’t involve painstaking steganography which can possibly be nailed by AI anyways.

    As both a fairly power user of LLMs and someone who tinkers with ciphers a lot (including creating my own techniques), I can guarantee: Markov chains aren’t smart enough to detect well-elaborate ciphers.

    I’ll give an example: Let focus on plain characters.

    The previous phrase contains a hidden message. It’s not simply an acrostic (when a word is formed by every initial letter from a sentence/verses/paragraphs), it’s an acrostic with Caesar cipher. And it’s not simply Caesar cipher, it’s a Caesar cipher with increasing shifting (decreasing when decoding):

    L (-0 -> L), F (-1 -> E), O (-2 -> M), P (-3 -> M), C (-4 -> Y as it wraps around from A back to Z) => LEMMY

    I can guarantee you, as someone who tested every single LLM out there: they’re unable to detect these kinds of ciphers. And it gets worse when we consider the possibility of adding other layers of ciphering: nothing stops me from adding Vigenere on top of Caesar, associating the letter with the corresponding number, then getting the nth prime at that position, and using wrap-add to add letters to produce another letter (okay, this is a very complicated example).

    Also, when I say “creating my own techniques”, I’m not joking. I’ll present you with a cipher I created:

    Maceió, Niterói, Rio Branco, Palmas, São Luís, Varginha.

    Believe it or not, the previous list of Brazilian cities hides the word “BRAZIL”. How? List each Brazilian state alphabetically (excluding Distrito Federal as it’s an administrative state rather than a common state), and you’ll get a list with exactly 26 states. And what else have 26 elements? The English alphabet. Map each alphabetical letter not just to the state (e.g. L, the 12th letter, would be Minas Gerais), but to a city within that state (e.g. Varginha):

    Maceió = Alagoas = 2nd from ordered list of states = B
    Niterói = Rio de Janeiro state = 18th = R
    Rio Branco = Acre = 1st = A
    Palmas = Tocantins = 26th = Z
    São Luís = Maranhão = 9th = I
    Varginha = Minas Gerais = 12th = L

    Again, creativity is the only limit. One can wrap it in steganography, use random coordinates and then map each digit to letters to form a long text… There’s no way to stop end-to-end encryption when two or more people have enough knowledge to convey their own tool chain of ciphering techniques. And LLMs will be clueless. Even human censors would be clueless.






  • @[email protected] @[email protected]

    TIL I’m possibly partially (if not entirely) illiterate.

    Starting with the first question, “Draw a line a_round_ the number or letter of this sentence.”, which can be ELI5’d as follows:

    The main object is the number or letter of this sentence, which is the number or letter signaling the sentence, which is “1”, which is a number, so it’s the number of this sentence, “1”. This is fine.

    The action being required is to “Draw a line around” the object, so, I must draw a line.

    However, a line implies a straight line, while around implies a circle (which is round), so it must be a circle.

    However, what’s around a circle isn’t called a line, it’s a circumference. And a circumference is made of infinitesimally small segments so small that they’re essentially an arc. And an arc is a segment insofar it effectively connects two points in a cartesian space with two dimensions or more… And a segment is essentially a finite range of a line, which is infinite…

    The original question asks for a line, which is infinite. However, any physical object is finite insofar it has a limited, finite area, so a line couldn’t be drawn: what can be drawn is a segment whose length is less or equal to the largest diagonal of the said physical object, which is a rectangular paper, so drawing a line would be impossible, only segments comprising a circumference.

    However, a physically-drawn segment can’t be infinitesimal insofar the thickness of the drawing tool would exceed the infinitesimality from an infinitesimal segment. It wouldn’t be a circumference, but a polygon with many sides.

    So I must draw a polygon with enough sides to closely represent a circumference, composed by the smallest possible segments, which are finite lines.

    However, the question asks for a line, and the English preposition a implies a single unit of something… but the said something can be a set (e.g. a flock, which implies many birds)… but line isn’t a set…

    However, too many howevers.

    So, if I decide to draw a circumference centered at the object (the number 1), as in circle the number, maybe it won’t be the line originally expected.

    I could draw a box instead, which would technically be around it, and would be made of lines (four lines, to be exact). But, again, a line isn’t the same as lines, let alone four lines.

    I could draw a single line, but it wouldn’t be around.

    Maybe I could reinterpret the space. I could bend the paper and glue two opposing edges of it, so any segment would behave as a line, because the drawable space is now bent and both tips of the segment would meet seamlessly.

    But the line wouldn’t be around the object, so the paper must be bent in a way that turns it into a cone whose tip is centered on the object, so a segment would become a line effectively around the object…

    However, I got no glue.

    /jk


  • @[email protected] @[email protected]

    As a sidenote, I remember that UK has an odd and ancient “law” stating something in the lines “The Crown must not be offended” (i.e. being anti-monarchy and advocating for the end of monarchy, even without any violent language/means but a pacific defense of anti-monarchy). I couldn’t find it, nor I can remember the exact phrasing, but such a “law” threatens prison time for those who “dare” to “offend” the crowniness of UK Crown. Also, I’m not sure to what extent this law is applied in practice.

    Even though I’m Brazilian (so the UK supposedly “have no power over here”, and I say it with the Gandalf’s voice), I see these international situations with some worry: there are needed laws (such as laws against noise pollution) and there are laws whose reach ends up going way too far from their “seemingly well-intentioned” puritan scope (such as the aforementioned laws).

    If countries are capable of passing draconian laws against their own citizens, don’t expect that those same countries couldn’t go further to impose these laws beyond their own lawns, especially in times of interconnectedness.

    And Fediverse platforms from everywhere around the entire globe end up being caught in the crossfire, due to that same interconnectedness.

    In the end of the day, the world is increasingly bleaker, as the history is being repeated (maxims “One thing people can learn from history books is that people can’t learn from history books”, and “history doesn’t just repeat, it rhymes”).


  • @[email protected] @[email protected]

    site:domain.tld does work, as an and x constraint. I often use it.
    It seems to me like the OP’s specific and (not x) usage of site:domain.tld is the reason why it isn’t working. While the negation prefix (-) does work for tokens/words (e.g. mercury -freddie), it’s probably transforming site into a token not to be included in the results (i.e. "any results that don’t contain the word “site”) which, disconnected from the rest of the sentence (:quora.com), turns the latter into part of what the results should include, so the query ends up being something like:

    Filter all the indexed Web results where its contents don’t include the word “site”, possibly do include “quora.com”, possibly do include “Molten”, possibly do include “boron”, possibly do include “oxide”, possibly do include “attacks”, possibly do include “silicates”

    The negation prefix has a similar effect to that of positive (+) prefix (e.g. “mercury +periodic +table”) as it turns the word into a required condition (must be present for “+”, must be absent for “-”) rather than an optional condition (i.e a search for “mercury periodic table”, without quotes, will contain pages with all three words in any order, pages with just two of the three words (such as “mercury periodic” in any order) and pages with only one of the three words (such as “mercury” which would include pages talking about the singer, and pages talking about the planet and pages talking about the Roman deity), ranked by “relevance”).

    As Quora pages do include “quora.com” somewhere within the page body, the first results will be from Quora because it’s part of the parsed condition (which is to optionally include “quora.com” as part of the result while discarding results containing the verbatim word “site”).


  • @[email protected]
    Quanto ao Gemini

    Até há usos práticos, como enfoque em hospedagem text-only, além do uso de certificados criados no próprio browser para identificar uma sessão (sim, existem client certs para HTTPS, mas é uma função meio “obscura” nos browsers). Já cheguei experimentar server-side em Gemini, e o uso de client certs é bastante acessível tanto para o código no server-side quanto para o cliente/usuário, com os navegadores tendo a funcionalidade à vista.

    O Gemini tenta resgatar o HTTP/0.9, quando era só GET e não havia scripting (código arbitrário rodando no cliente), somente markup (HTML). Não concordo totalmente com o que a galera diz mas, dizem que o scripting é a raíz do problema da Web moderna pois permitiu execução de códigos arbitrários pelo cliente, hoje em dia praticamente de forma não-consentida (apenas com a possibilidade de desligar totalmente o JS, o que quebra a maioria dos sites de hoje em dia).

    Particularmente não tenho problemas com scripting, até porque gosto bastante do JS, foi minha primeira linguagem de programação e até hoje utilizo (embora recentemente tenho paquerado o Ruby), mas consigo até certo ponto entender esses fundamentos por trás do propósito do Gemini. Mas é praticamente uma reinvenção da roda, então entendo seu lado também.

    Quanto a algoritmos

    Fomos acostumados com FB e afins, que só são eficientes pois são invasivos. No Fediverso, até existem o que poderiam ser chamados de algoritmos de recomendação (“trending”, por exemplo), mas de tão não-invasivos (e sem “compra de promoção do conteúdo”), realmente não dão “engajamento” que costuma ocorrer naquelas redes.

    Na realidade, as diferentes plataformas do fediverso atuam diferentemente pra agregar conteúdos: o Lemmy agrega por instância -> comunidade -> thread, hierarquia que leva a um meio-caminho já andado pra achar um conteúdo de interesse (ex.: Lemmy.eco.br é voltado ao Brasil e onde mais se espera encontrar brasileiros; c/musica agrega listas de músicas, enquanto c/tiodopave agrega piadas: isso é um ponto de partida pra localizar conteúdo).

    Quanto à nostalgia

    As coisas mudam e, sim, é importante que ocorram mudanças. No entanto, as mudanças que têm ocorrido na Web infelizmente têm sido mais avarias que melhorias: Web Integrity e fim do MV2 focados em acabar com adblockers, mais e mais recursos sendo agregados (Bluetooth, porta serial, etc) que tornam os Standards tão complicados que fazem centrar tudo em Google/Apple/Mozilla (projetos como Ladybird e Servo ainda têm muito arroz-e-feijão pra comer pra chegar ao nível de suporte do Chromium/WebKit/Gecko).

    A nostalgia, nesse sentido, não é meramente uma saudade de um passado longínquo, mas sobretudo a necessidade de “restaurar um backup” para que progressos melhores possam ser propostos/feitos sem influência de acionistas, porque às vezes é necessário “recomeçar” um projeto inteiro partindo das primeiras versões legadas ao invés do esforço hercúleo da refatoração.



  • @[email protected] [email protected]

    Descobri o fediverso ano passado. O Lemmy é, das plataformas do fediverso, a que mais interajo. Não há uma instância específica porque — e aqui está a magia do fediverso — as instâncias se comunicam, inclusive plataformas distintas. Eu mesmo, estou interagindo nesse tópico do Lemmy através de uma plataforma que não o Lemmy (Sharkey).

    Ao meu ver, o fediverso (bem como o Geminispace, uma Web sob protocolo textual similar ao Gopher) são os últimos espaços onde conseguimos resgatar, até certo ponto, aquela Web dos tempos do Orkut, Bate-papo UOL, Yahoo Respostas e afins.

    Mas aqui vai um desabafo pessoal, e um ponto a se pensar com relação às interações online: tenho notado uma tendência na Internet no geral, desde que esta passou a fazer parte da minha realidade nos anos 2000. É que, cada vez mais, interações como essa aqui, onde você e eu estamos fazendo uso humano de textos não-curtos, estão… raras.

    Dois pontos levam a isso: existência das reações rápidas (curtidas, descurtidas, reações via emojis) e existência de algoritmos que hoje conseguem gerar textos tão “convincentes” que levam à dúvida quanto à agência humana por trás de qualquer texto online.

    No primeiro ponto, é por vezes frustrante para uma pessoa (como eu) acostumada em escrever textos longos e profundos receber um “jóia” e não um texto igualmente profundo. Quero dizer, reações são úteis principalmente àquilo que não pede resposta textual (exemplo: “De nada” após um “Obrigado”), mas sempre que possível tento responder em texto, positiva ou negativamente (i.e. diante de uma discordância).

    No segundo ponto, e aqui cito um blog da gringa que li, “os textos online se tornaram cheaper”, as LLMs estão meio que “desvalorizando” textos longos como esse. Pra piorar a situação, sou neurodivergente, então meus textos, que trafegam de forma desinibida e espontânea por várias áreas do saber, são quase que indistinguíveis de um texto gerado por LLM. Já fui muitas vezes acusado de ser uma LLM, e isso também acaba sendo frustrante.

    Esses dois pontos me fazem, vez em quando, do nada decidir por apagar o que produzi, diante de uma frustração ontológica e epistemológica com o retorno que aquilo (não) produziu (além, claro, de uma “depressão” de longa data onde vira e mexe me pego lembrando e/ou encarando os profundos olhos delineados da Escuridão do Abismo).

    Mesmo assim, acabo por permanecer, diante de como o fediverso é um Terceiro Lugar onde a interação humana ainda ocorre sem influência de algoritmos de recomendação ou interesses escusos de acionistas. Ao meu ver, vale a pena, sim, voltar ao fediverso.



  • @[email protected] [email protected]

    In my opinion, two very specific subjects that highly resonate with me:
    - Cryptology (as in the study of ciphers) and Steganography: a community intended for people to share puzzles, novel ciphers (Rcszqar pg s mpbra voqjdg), techniques and examples of existing/novel arts with hidden messages (e.g. the BACH motif behind some classical music), algorithms (preferably code golf), math formulas and theorems, etc.
    - Occult, Esoteric and Left-hand path spiritualities, preferably focused on personal spirituality: a community intended for people who have their own individual paths/beliefs (or are willing to build one for themselves) so they can share concepts, rituales, books/grimoires and even items among them. By LHP and esoteric, some examples are (but not limited to) Lilithism and Luciferianism, Hermeticism, Thelema, Quimbanda, Gnosticism, Wicca, Neo-Hellenism, Goëtia, Theistic Satanism, among other belief systems and religions (the latter kind, “religions”, preferably focused on building individual paths that can consider each one’s contexts and lives and worldviews, with the Masters/Leaders being the deities and entities themselves who are being revered/worshiped).


  • @[email protected] Even if I get to do something (such as I’m doing right now while trying to express something profound, aware of how I’m probably just yelling to the clouds), it doesn’t change the fact that the world behaves like a prison where all lifeforms are thrown to “make a living” (i.e. surviving and competing against other lifeforms because their own vessels offer no other option other than the biological preprogramming of “instincts”).

    Also, the “exit hatch” is so tight and spiky that one must endure utter pain while trying to squeeze through it. And things like MAID, which would allow one to conscientiously and finally choose something about their own existence, “must be allowed only for the terminally-ill” because “life” is something so, so “sacred” that people can’t even dare to think of choosing other than “living” (a.k.a. constantly trying to avoid and postpone the unavoidable by trying to fulfill the vessel’s needs while being forced to play the unskippable game of social compliance), because they “must do something fun with their time” and thinking otherwise must be inconceivable!

    And it sounds no different from how prisoners must “do something” with their prison time, be it reading a book, playing cards and small-talking with other inmates, taking the obligatory sunbath for the daily dose of Vitamin D, scratching the wall so to keep track of days, or doing the obligatory physical exercising at the grass-field…

    I can’t help but wonder why some Demiurge threw me to endure the lifelong punishment of “existing”, with all the whistles and bells inseparable from human existence: paying taxes and subscriptions (despite any condition of unemployment), seeking and serving jobs so a rich person can become more rich, conforming to civil duties, serving the military and, in many countries, forcefully belonging to some religion, etc, etc… It’s so absurd that even Absurdist philosophers would have a hard time trying to frame existence in less absurd terms.

    I’m not denying how some moments can be “happy” or “enjoyable”, but it doesn’t make life less of a prison. It just makes me momentarily distracted from the prison while still being behind the bars of the baryonic matter.

    The only thing that really comforts me is knowing how the kiss from the Lady Scythe-Bearer is inevitable and even humans with their fancy tools are powerless against Her, but for me to need to wait for Her bittersweet lips is like a prisoner needing to wait for serving their sentence before getting to gather with their loved one.

    My point is: people like me should be allowed to choose to end our own existence without having to endure pain and the high certainty of failure from an attempt of our own (and trust me, I’ve been trying and failing because my vessel is preprogrammed with the pesky survival instincts). My point is that MAID should be also allowed to anyone who are consciously willing to choose it. But, yeah, it’s such a taboo for many people.


  • @[email protected] @[email protected]

    I’m a person who’d be labeled as “truly depressed”, as I coexist with the so-called “depression” since my childhood. I went to several mental health professionals, tried several different medications (Paroxetin, Ritalin, Escitalopram, Aripiprazole). Nothing worked.

    Here’s why: one can’t cure something without curing the root cause. One could take painkillers for a headache and the headache would temporarily cease, but the painkiller won’t cure whatever is causing the headache in the first place.

    Turns out that my “depression” stems from something that can’t be cured, the ontological realization of the lack of True Will. It’s something way beyond mundane questions such as “I’m far into adulthood and I still don’t know what kissing is” or “I’m in adulthood and I didn’t manage to achieve a career”. My fundamental complaints can’t even be put into human language without sounding absurd, because they have to do with the absurdity of existence itself.

    My “problems” can’t be treated by medications, my “problems” can’t be treated by professionals, because my “problems” exist beyond existence.

    I have a problem with having being born without my consent. I have a problem with my awareness of the pointlessness of a fleeting biological existence before the carelessness and vastness of the Cosmos. I have a problem with the fact that I must “take responsibility” legally/socially about myself even though I couldn’t even choose to be born in the first place. I have a problem with the fact that I must seek to "do/be something/someone useful for society_ so I get to “afford to eat and have a shelter” by having a colorful piece of paper, when there’s no proper way to release my body from such needs. I have a problem with how this flesh-and-bones vessel imposes the continuity of existence unto me (“instinct of survival”).

    Treatent won’t solve the root problem (lack of True Will), it’d be just gaslighting me into gaslighting myself by keeping me busy with fleeting mundaneity. As the movie says, “Don’t look up”: I must not see the ever-approaching dark lips of Death emerging from the darkness of spacetime continuum so I should take medication and walk myself to that queue over there so I can apply for countless jobs until I afford to be chosen by a landlord employer who expects me to grant them more profit.

    Even talks about one’s own choice on the continuity of existing (MAID) is met with societal rejection, for “life is a gift and we must be thankful to whatever/whoever granted us with life”. In this sense, suicide hotlines, treatment and medication aren’t so different from clergy and their religious dogmas in the time of feudalism, where peasants were convinced of their “transcendental purpose” to serve… Just history repeating itself.

    Unfortunately, no treatment will make me forget how existence is inherently servile, to which I’ll continue to shout until Lady Death gets to finally kiss me: “Non Serviam”.


  • @[email protected]

    In another Brazilian city I personally know, Jundiaí - SP, some restaurants built some kind of “deck” (made of wood planks) on the side of the street. I tried to embed a photo from one of these (this is my first attempt on sending images to Lemmy using Calckey so I’m not sure if the image will work).

    These “decks” were permanently installed, including electrical wiring running from the establishment to the “deck” lights. I don’t even know how the city hall authorized this, considering how the region (Campinas Microregion, Jundiaí Urban Agglomeration and Greater São Paulo, all of them in growing process of conurbation) is highly car-centric (yeah, there’s a growing public infrastructure including trains and bicycle lanes, and Jundiaí, specifically, is pretty walkable, but many things still seem to revolve around vehicles around there).

    On the one hand, this theoretically frees up the sidewalk for pedestrians. On the other hand, it depends on the restaurant respecting pedestrians by keeping the sidewalk clear, and I don’t know to what extent these restaurants do this. But this concept of flatbed truck bar isn’t too far from that of these restaurants in Jundiaí.

    A screenshot from Streetview showing a wood deck built by a restaurant on the side of a Brazilian street in Jundiaí - SP.