I finally got around to seeing “I Saw The TV Glow”, and it definitely lived up to the hype.

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  • gaystyleJoker [she/her]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    4·
    3 days ago

    hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i’ll add you to the list!

    the list as it stands:

    GayTuckerCarlson* (6/23 - 6/29)
Eco* (6/30 - 7/6)
Disaster_of_Passion (7/7 - 7/13)
sodium_nitride (7/14 - 7/20)
peanutbuttercupola* (7/21 - 7/27)
BountifulEggnog* (7/28 - 8/3)    
oscardejarjayes* (8/4 - 8/10)
Seryph (8/11 - 8/17)

    ​ * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters

  • BountifulEggnog [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    2·
    2 hours ago
    negativity

    I hate my stupid life. I can’t believe where and who I am. Thinking about my childhood and teen years, how was that me. How am I who I am now. What is happening. Why is this me.

    depressing/climate change

    Saw this cute old couple at work today. Probably in their 70s. That will never be me. Very sad to think about. The world is going to be an inferno by that point.

    Spending my best years wasting away, hating my life, dysphoric, suffering, all the things. How miserable. And then dying early, if not by myself then climate change. As if either of those are good options.

  • EstraDoll [she/her, he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
    5·
    4 hours ago

    sexual identity is weird because labels ostensibly have definitions but like, what terms to I “identify” with? what terms actually feel that, when said, represent me? somehow I identify with the terms straight, bi, and lesbian all at the same time, which just feels like being bi with extra steps, but that’s just what tickles my brain in the right way

  • Wmill [they/them, fae/faer]@hexbear.netEnglish
    2·
    3 hours ago

    It always feels weird existing in public, at the gym rn did a plasma donation so just sticking to walking as I kill time till 3 when I got to pick up my mom. Might have to do with being in a different gym from my usual but idk

  • TheDeed [he/him, comrade/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
    10·
    6 hours ago

    There are lots of guides for diy hrt or markets for transfemmes (I am guessing because estradiol and other medications for for transfems are not controlled substances)

    I’ve been worried lately about losing access to HRT given recent shit in the USA. Are there equivalent guides for testosterone/transmasc out there?

    • WalrusDragonOnABike [they/them]@reddthat.com
      1·
      7 minutes ago

      I think such symbolism is important for making people feel more comfortable existing. Especially for children and adolescents who may feel alone IRL in places that are less accepting. Personally, I keep a little pride thing in my classroom. Have had it there for a couple years now and not had a single person say a thing about it.

    • SuperZutsuki [they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
      4·
      3 hours ago

      I don’t think it’s lib to feel that way. It’s basically a way to signal that you don’t actively hate queer and trans people, which is nice to know when engaging with someone.

  • BountifulEggnog [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    13·
    19 hours ago

    Feeling anxious about one thing? Just get anxious about something else, ideally something that’s a way bigger deal. Don’t see me worrying about the first thing anymore do you smuglord

    Follow for more anxiety management advice

  • 🎀 Seryph (She/Her)@lemmygrad.ml
    15·
    21 hours ago

    Day 1 of voice training again to get past my block: I am way better at this than I remembered.

    Trying some of the more modern methods from that site linked last time and I can already hit a voice that I like, just getting it consistent is gonna be the issue like usual. I forgot how fun this gets though. I was mostly just doing a preliminary test of everything that was on the site for an hour with plenty of breaks to listen to the clips and let my voice rest. Overall pretty happy with it for a basically 0 effort practice. Now just to keep at it for at least 30 minutes every day.

      • 🎀 Seryph (She/Her)@lemmygrad.ml
        3·
        9 hours ago

        https://selenearchive.github.io/

        @[email protected] linked it to me. It’s pretty overwhelming to at first. (especially compared to L’s guide which I used to use, but apparently L’s is outdated. Mfw I’ve been (slowly) voice training long enough that the methods I used are considered bad now.) But if you just listen to a few of the audio clips instead of thinking you need to do all of them it’s not too bad. I do kinda wish the site had a more clear ‘start here’ bit though, I was able to jump right into it without one since I have my old experience to go off of but idk I feel like someone without any would be lost. Just do shit in the order you want to.

          • 🎀 Seryph (She/Her)@lemmygrad.ml
            3·
            8 hours ago

            Kinda yeah, one thing I found nice about L’s was how structured and ordered it was. It gave you specific things to focus on before moving onto the next thing once you felt comfortable. And in so doing it was able to introduce new concepts as they became relevant which allowed for an easier learning experience. You did just Pitch and then learned what Resonance is and focused on just that and so on. It atomises the process of learning in a way that’s less overwhelming

            While I understand it’s a difference of the approaches, where this one is a lot more open ended and wants you to work on multiple things at once, it means that, for instance, I don’t really have an obvious “start” point. Sure size and weight come up first, but I won’t understand why I should do those two first over the other voice clips until after I’ve already been training a while, which I think is pretty discouraging. Personally I know why it sets those first, like I said I have previous experience with this stuff, but even with that experience I feel almost aimless right now in a way I never did while using L’s.

            I’d also add while I’m at it, I’m more of a textual learner, and so the audio focus of the method is kinda harder for me. The amount of times I need to relisten to an instruction when I know if it was written out I’d have understood it immediately is quite high. I get that it’s a huge part of this method though, since it’s all about learning to identify and replicate the sounds, so listening to clips is very much necessary. It’s just another small bit though that’s quite noticeable, I’m probably gonna just start writing notes to compensate.

            Edit: Also, using all the jargon without explaining any means that anyone without some sort of voice background isn’t going to understand it until they get further in, which is discouraging

            • awth13 [fae/faer, comrade/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
              2·
              7 hours ago

              Thank you, these are all great points.

              I think a lot of these issues stem from the story behind the website. Selene (the voice in the clips) never intended to make a guide or course but rather was just saving clips from her lessons to have them on hand. Some of the clips are her responding to a specific question, some of the clips are entire lessons, most of them are named in a way that probably only makes sense to Selene lol. But then another person realised how valuable these clips are and tried to kind of, sort of make a guide out of the disorganised clip collection, and here we are.

              I hope, eventually, someone with similar ability to demonstrate differences in sound and expressiveness as Selene makes an actual guide based on the same approach; whenever that happens, the website will immediately become obsolete in turn. Until then, I agree, something like L’s guide can be much better at orienting people, especially when all of the caveats about the mechanical approach I mentioned last time are understood. Unfortunately, trying to modulate your voice can get pretty desperate – I’ve personally seen people filming their throats with laryngoscopes in chase of that mythical OPC and injuring themselves by obsessing over larynx movements – so I personally find it hard to tell whether all of the issues with Selene’s archive outweigh its ability (and explicit intent) to teach people to explore their voices without ever thinking about the larynx.

              P.S. The website is open-source. If anyone has ideas on how to organise its content better, please open an issue or PR. I kind of moved on from working on it myself but I’ve been forced to be the maintainer because nobody else stepped up.

              • 🎀 Seryph (She/Her)@lemmygrad.ml
                2·
                6 hours ago

                That makes sense, hopefully it happens, in the meanwhile this is still definitely very helpful. Just not as structured as what I’m used to.

                You will have to pry my larynx movements and swallow hold from my cold, probably suffocated, dead hands though