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  • gaystyleJoker [she/her]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    5·
    16 days ago

    HELLO THIS IS THE MEGA SIGN UP POST/LIST POST

    if you have a preferred week please tell me

    Shaleesh* (2/23 - 3/1)
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    ​ * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters

  • XiaCobolt [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    19·
    11 days ago

    Being trans then becoming a communist (the more common route) makes a lot of sense. Transition opens your eyes to oppression but also intersectionality and solidarity.

    But being a communist and then becoming trans (what I imagine quite a few here are) is hilarious. It’s like I feel something is fundamentally wrong. Oh turns out society is built on the violence required to enforce capital accumulation and imperialism, was that it? No that’s bad but I feel there’s something else…

  • TerminalEncounter [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    18·
    14 days ago
    bottom surgery first month done~

    Finally, dilating only 3x a day. It takes so much time from set up, to dilate, to wash, to dry - and doing it 4 times a day ends up with me spending most of the day dilating or finishing up dilating. In terms of healing, everything looks good! No fibrin, no hypergranulation, not even any discharge. According to the surgeons post op care timeline, this is when Im supposed to be “exploring my clit and labia” - sorry, gotta flick my bean, surgeons orders lol. It does help sensation come back. Things arent as numb anymore, which is great, a few times while Ive been out Ive had this like weird shocks sensation? Totally normal, it just means nerves are coming back online. People keep saying its “reconnecting” which anatomically doesnt make a lot of sense to me and I think its more just compression from swelling is starting to come down.

    sex

    Had a great long Valentines!

    I get wet, apparently easily lol. First time it happened I thought I was bleeding. Nope! Just wet after tying a girl up and her grinding while we made out. Im not supposed to be using my vagina for sex… so I didnt! Pure topping with toys and hands and oral 😇

    I suspect they also don’t want people bottoming anally while recovering, which is fine by me.

    Being horny that often did, I think, also help bring some sensation back.

    :::

  • XiaCobolt [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    18·
    11 days ago

    I’ve said this before but I love meeting really old lesbians (like in their 70s or 80s) because they’re so politely baffled by a trans lesbians. It’s like “Oh so you’re one of those transexual women? And a lesbian? They can do that these days? How delightful.”

  • lilypad [pup/pup's, it/its]@hexbear.netEnglish
    18·
    16 days ago
    cw ableist language
    im a fucking idiot

    Soooooo yeah I was super wrong, she feels similarly to me, and has been exploring in that direction for a while, and I’m a bit over the moon. I spent the night at hers again and it was lovely, curling up into her. She kissed me before I left today, and it felt so wonderful. The parallel play with her is really nice, unpressured and cozy. She’s communicative and understanding. She’s been hurt a few times by diving into relationships and wants to move slowly, not diving into a relationship yet but exploring in that direction, which may explain a little of my failure to pick up on things. She’s been quite cautious. God it feels good to feel attraction like this again, I have had issues with being attracted to people who are toxic or emotionally cut off or just plain mean to me, and she’s none of these things (I’ve known her for a while. I dont know all her flaws etc., but she’s not toxic, not emotionally cut off, and isn’t mean to people).

    trans mega apology form [jokey tone]

    To: all the folks who told me I was wrong

    From: Lilypad

    Date: yesterday evening

    Reason for behavior:

    [x] the media convinced me attraction looked a certain way

    [x] I didn’t know the sapphic stereotypes were true

    [x] I missed people who are unhealthy and mean to me

    [x] I dont know how to interpret social cues

    [x] I was jealous of people with stable hormone levels

    [ ] mercury was in retrograde

    I will hereby respect the trans mega posters and not talk down the people who tell me someone might be attracted to/interested in me.

  • Tomato Queen@lemmygrad.ml
    18·
    16 days ago
    context

    Transwoman, still in closet irl

    A few days ago one of my professors called me “Miss” even though I had full hair on my face, felt nice for a minute.

  • Sodium_nitride@lemmygrad.ml
    18·
    11 days ago

    I did something many here might not approve of. I decided to climb back into the closet. I lied to my mom and said I’m cancelling transitioning (I’m 100% continuing)

    She told me she couldn’t be happier and started praising God

    Now I’m 100% certain to cut my parents out of my life. All I need is time. 2 years to finish my education and get a good job. I’m going to spend these 2 years avoiding and lying to my parents, then bam! I’ll disappear like a magic trick.

  • Sodium_nitride@lemmygrad.ml
    16·
    13 days ago
    spoiler

    I feel relieved now.

    I’ll just cut my ties with family after paying off my student debt.

    Still a few years away from that.

    But glad to know that the hatred I held in my heart for my parents since I was 14 wasn’t just an edgy phase, it was fully justified. (Well ok dad is still remaining).

    I shouldn’t be crying. I should focus my time on enjoying being alone. Many benefits to it.