Didn’t have a chance to write up a detailed post, either on a fruit or the topic I was originally thinking about. I think they’re neat and they taste good.
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if I had my little way I’d eat peaches every day.
Thinking of getting back into Dead State. It’s a spiritual sequel to Fallout 1 and 2 (and Tactics now that I have recently replayed that). It’s a turn based squad RPG set in a zombie apocalypse. It’s one of the few games that I feel properly balances combat against humans versus combat against zombies, exploring and looting, while managing a base, with speech checks and dialogue.
I finished it a few years ago but I messed up and caused some people to die and didn’t get the best ending with a couple of others. I also picked a kind of boring ending where the surviving military helps you evacuate, in exchange for your character being drafted as a commander of their forces.
What I really like is you have to balance the personalities and factions in your base. You can’t please everyone as different factions are diametrically opposed. But you can call in favors and persuade people to soften the blow. The other thing is you also manage your individual relationship with other survivors, but without any spoilers some survivors secretly (or openly) are real pieces of shit, so you’re better off antagonizing them and bringing them into line (even killing or exiling them), instead of placating or appeasing them, because if you do the later messed up stuff can happen between them and other survivors. Likewise other survivors who seem like dicks or useless really come out of their shells and become real team players.
The combat is basically like Fallout 2. You have action points, 2 weapon slots, you balance attacking versus moving etc. You can customize your own character to be good at melee, range or a mix of the two (my favorite as there’s some neat synergies that can make you a real jack of all trades MVP in a fight, but that’s balanced against not being the worlds best sniper or melee fighter).
You also go from being like Season 1 walking dead helpless survivors to unstoppable killers in customized body armour and weapons, clearing rooms with homebrewed nerve gas.
almost 4 weeks post-ffs
Most of the swelling is down. I’m very slowly regaining feeling in the areas that were previously numb. It feels like when novocaine wears off, and the pins and needles sensation is most mild except this sensation is extended over several… um… I hope just weeks. No pain in my lips or chin or inside mouth or it’s low-level enough where I can ignore it. There’s mild pain on my scalp primarily along the sutures. They’re still sore to the touch so I’m trying to sleep on my back which is very unnatural to me. Besides the sleep deprivation, I’m pretty much back to pre-surgery energy levels and have honestly been for a week already. I’m fighting the urge to go out and be active when I should still be resting.
I’ve started messages and silicone strips for the only visible scar and these treatments have already had effect. Minoxidil for the transplanted hair and obviously it hasn’t been long enough usage to have visible hair regrowth but it has slowed down shock loss.
Now that the swelling is down and my vision is back, I can look in the mirror and appreciate the results. And yeah. The struggle was worth it. I love the changes, looking into a mirror and seeing my face now is euphoria-inducing. I dunno think I’m kinda hot now too… I can’t wait until the hair grows back and the healing process is fully complete. I’ll be unstoppable
I found myself back to full power really at 2 month mark. It’s such a life changing surgery.
After a month it’s still that bad? Wow, that’s brutal.
Full recovery is 12 months, mostly for remaining swelling and hair regrowth for the last 6 months. Honestly the worst part is the first 3 days. Afterwards it gets a little bit better every day. I feel amazing compared to 2 weeks ago
Correction: It’s slightly less brutal.
putting “OSINT expert” on my resume because I’m terminally online
putting “hella gay” on my resume because I’m on this particular corner of the internet
went thrifting
got a cute lil narwhal snap bracelet plushy and stuff for decluttering
dysphoria
made myself sad looking at dresses that don’t fit and a cool pair of boots that were a size too small
also the snap plushy sounds so cute I’m enviouseeeeeee~ cyooot
taking about assimilationists and patriarchy
I’m tired of this genre of posts I keep seeing on other sites where they’ll say something like “trans people existing doesn’t affect you” or like “no one is asking you to change your beliefs, just to treat others with respect” or did stuff like that.
Trans people (and queer people in general) existing IS a threat to the gender system, and so is a threat to people deeply invested in it. I DO want people to change thier deeply held beliefs. I am a radical, I hate society, I want to change it, I want to destroy patriarchy. Assimilationism is not a path to liberation.
Real!! I understand wanting to be stealth and just be cis, but tbh I can’t help but think the trans people assimilating are losing some of the most important parts of being trans. It’s something special, not something to hide away.
It’s something special, not something to hide away
Agree! I love being trans!
And I understand wanting to be safe and wanting to not have to deal with transphbic comments, worry about violence, etc. But assimilation isn’t a real path towards that, only dismantling patriarchy is.
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“no one is asking you to change your beliefs, just to treat others with respect”
This one in particular, like no your beliefs are literally just wrong and unfounded and should be changed. The whole “treat people with respect even if you disagree” thing is such bullshit, at least in this case. You can’t “respect” me if you think (whatever horrible transphobic thing you can imagine). Respect isn’t not calling people slurs.
Yeah, it’s just liberal bullshit.
What we actually need is a gender cultural revolution
Been exercising more and eating more healthily this week and I’m starting to like my body just a little more :)
we built this shitty
we built this shitty on butt with hole
idk
I
Want a cock n balls to ride
And party every gay
not as good imo, you win this round
Okay idk why but something clicked in my brain and now all the essays I’ve been writing are gender and identity stuff. I’ve written so many in the past month after not writing any in my entire time at uni so far. Not complaining since they’re fun and easy to write, it’s just weird that it’s happened suddenly.
There’s 2 thing I would have NEVER expected as a teenager:
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That I’m a woman
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That I would join a knitting group (well not yet. I still have to wait a few weeks)
I was looking for a new hobby and thought I would give it a try, because I found crocheting quite enjoyable as a child and I REALLY want some nice, custom sweaters.
But holy moly is yarn expensive.
(perfect emoji lol)I just spent 100€ for 2 circular needle pairs, some basic tools and 22 skeins of wool, and almost all of those things were on sale. Like, it’s legit cheaper to just buy a sweater, unknit it and use that as a source of wool, because the prices in the fashion industry are just that insanely low.
Prime example of how ridiculous capitalism is.
Yarn is so expensiiiivvvveeeeeee and then before you know it you have saved up a ton of one off or two off skiens and need to find small projects to knit
I’ve already bought a bunch of one-off skeins.
But I can use them for practice or experimenting, I guess.
Experimenting is always fun!
Congrats on finding a hobby group, and having a neat hobby in the first place!
Thank you.
Yeah, my social worker has tried to get me to join one for 5 years now, but I never did until now because of dysphoria kicking my ass.
how fun!!
I hope it will be, because usually I hate monotonous tasks. But if I can listen to stuff or chat with others at the same time, I think I will love it.
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needles n stuff
Did my first DIY injection yesterday. I was kinda anxious before if i could pull through because i’ve never shot up anything, but i had some of my friends around to support me and it seems i’m more cold blooded than i thought, even got told i have a steady hand and that everbody else present had a harder time during their first try. Haven’t felt this much like a big girl since my first laser session.
congratsssss!!! proud of u
That’s amazing! You’re crazy capable for having a steady hand at it.
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Hello gamers, I got my blood work back and don’t really know what to make of it
- T: ~90 ng/dL
- E: ~65 pg/mL
Is this normal for 2.5 months on HRT? I was on 4mg estradiol a day for the first month and a half and then bumped up to 6mg, plus 100mg Spiro a day (unchanged throughout). I definitely missed doses here and there, but maybe only a handful throughout.
E doesnt come in ng/dL, are you sure you are reading the levels correctly? It should be pg/mL or pmol/L.
Oh yup I misread it’s pg/mL
okiii well general recommended levels are E2: 100-200 pg/mL (367-734 pmol/L) and T: < 50 ng/dL (1.7 nmol/L) so u pawbably neeeddd a bit higher dose. how are u taking the E?
Oral tablet/pill. I’m interested in injections because I hear people often respond to that better and I already do weekly injections w/ semaglutide so what’s another shot?
Do you just swallow the pill? putting it under the tongue or letting it dissolve in your cheek gets more of it straight to the bloodstream.
Also with the gel just put it right on the girldick, it’s about three times as effective than anywhere else.
i have no tricks for injections
Isn’t my mouth gonna be all bitter if I just keep it in there instead of swallowing?
Shot tricks:
For DIY you can often use 31g insulin needles because the liquid is thinner than the perscribed stuff and subq has comprable uptake rates to IM (to my knowledge at least)
You can use use a vial for more than just a month, as long as its kept steril and the stopper is fine.
If you kinda squeeze a squigly with your skin you can trap the estradiol in there after taking the needle out, if youre having issues with leakage.
Thats all i got, and it aint medical advice lol
now this is
postingvery nice
subq and im have identical levels with all esters except EUn
Not really surprising. There’s a lot of variation from person to person it seems, so starting doses often are not enough, but serve to get an idea of what is needed.
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